A PIECE OF MYSELF

I am no poet,nor a writer of a scene, But when I am with you, I can write a whole book,  You make me feel extreme Your smile makes me shiver, Your gaze makes me still The jokes that you say, Won't let my grin go away Every time you say good morning, It brightens up my day Along with that virtual kiss, The part of my day, I hate to miss Knowing that we are miles apart, A lot of hurdles may do us part But I know that we could make it through As long as I am with you Finding you is like a dream, Feeling that "instant click"  Isn't as difficult as I thought It may seem Although I am too shy, Let me tell you this without a lie You will always be special in my eyes You will always be my BENG  Disclaimer: If you read this, I hope you are #kilig.. ayyeee.. :)

Approximately 3 months from now, I would soon be a year older. Middle adulthood would soon be welcoming me with open arms. I had barely noticed that my age would shortly fall off the calendar anytime soon until I observe these red lights which made me realized "Ohh! I am getting old.. WAIT!" hahaha :) I know that I am not getting any younger and I have to put myself in perspective but I never thought that old age is very very excited to see me.. hahaha  :)  Here are some signs that might help you realize that you are not getting any younger. 1. Bar nights turned to coffee dates or movie marathons Gone are the days when you want to party all night and drink til you drop sessions. You seem to be contented with coffee dates and movie marathons because you realize that drinking leads to hangovers which won't do you any good. 2. Your Facebook news feed is flooded with babies or married friends Everyday, I check out my Facebook feed to see what my family and fri...

I love staring at the sky. The soothing effect of the unreachable clouds never seize to amaze me. I have a lot of goals and aspirations wherein at the moment, resembles like the clouds.  I cannot feel them with my bare hands but that won't stop me from believing that someday, I would grasp it whole. A couple of years back, being a nurse abroad was an unreachable dream for me. However, that  never stopped me from hoping and from keeping my eyes off of that dream of mine even though a handful of obstacles came my way. With that being said, I am hopeful I can reach my aspirations in the not so distant future. I know it might not be as easy as eating pizza but I am positive I can reach it. I always think that it is only a matter of how badly you want it. Moreover, the mere sight of the sky makes me remember my family. I am fully aware that they are on the other side of the world, and although they are so far away, I am still happy that we are looking at the same sky.  S...

I had been away from my country for 8 months now. Sadly, I  see pictures on facebook everyday and whenever I see things from my hometown, I feel that strong urge to go back even  for just a day but that is far from possible at the moment. So I decided to list a couple of things I miss. 1. Food I terribly miss Asian food. I had been eating a lot of it in my 26 years of existence. I miss how flavorsome the ginabot is, how crispy and oozing with saltiness the lechon is and most importantly, my father's "inun-unan and sweet and sour" recipe. Just thinking of it makes me drool. 2. Beach Although there are a couple of scenic beaches here in Miami, I would still like to dive to the naturally magnificent beaches in the Philippines. Ohhh I love to swim though I do not know how. hahaha.. A secret: I have my own life jacket left in the Philippines, one of the many reasons I love diving in my hometown and not in here because I might drown. hahaha :) 3. Friends I miss m...

Often times I get skeptic on writing a blog simply because I make it  for only one reason, and that is on airing out my emotions and thoughts. I seldom rant and rave whenever I feel something bad nor show how too down in dumps I am when I feel sad. Instead of showing it off, I always put it on paper or on a blog.  There was a point in my life where in I showed how angry I am to a person and it ended up badly. I regretted it  terribly that from then on, I decided to keep myself shut whenever I feel disappointed or bad. Just today, I realized being silent and doing away with something you don't like is also similar to showing anger and what's worst is the other party cannot decipher what you were thinking. And now i am in a deliberate challenge on telling my emotions which is my biggest drawback. My Achilles heel.

On those days when nothing's right When sorrow seems to be your plight Give a thought to me, I 'm always there I'll lend a smile, you know I care! If happiness seems far away And dark clouds cover up the day I'll send you something you can't find A lovely thought to ease your mind Life's journey may not be so smooth But friends can lighten up your mood Reach out to me, you'll find me there When you feel lost and life's unfair I'll lend this smile and helping hand Knowing you will understand One day I'll be reaching out to you When it's my turn for feeling blue So on this journey that we share I'll keep you close in thought and prayer May angels guard you all the while BUT LET ME KNOW, WHEN YOU CAN'T SMILE -unknown

It is almost 12 midnight and my eyes won't shut down. Old folks used to say that if you cannot sleep, your soul mate is thinking of you and so I wonder what if I make a letter to this unknown soul mate of mine and see if he could read this someday or I could let him read this one day. I know it's weird but I am weird so it's okay. hahaha :) 3/30/2015 11:36pm Dear YOU, I hope YOU are fine wherever you are. I do not know if I met YOU already and that time would unveil YOU to me or that destiny is still planning for us to meet, but I want YOU to know that I have been waiting for YOU since time immemorial. I have been in hurtful traumatic relationships before but that didn't stop me from trying again, hoping that someday, I will meet YOU. I never blamed those relationships that didn't work out before, keeping in mind, that somehow, it will prepare me to handle our relationship when we meet. I know it might sound weird but I always pray to God to write my love ...